Tuesday, November 18, 2008

One of those days...

Today is just one of those days, where I wake up and feel like I just don't have the strength, emotionally or physically, to get through the day. I've been on the verge of tears since I woke up. And it isn't just the fact that I'm now overdue that's got me down (although that's not exactly improving my disposition)--its a whole conglomeration of things that just suck right now and have me worried about our family's future.

Today, I just can't do all of the stuff I try so hard to juggle every day--I can't be the patient mom who handles her son's constant whining and tantrums with grace. I can't be the cheerleader that my husband needs right now as he's going through a difficult time. I can't be the put-together woman who keeps her house clean, manages the household, takes care of the finances, and keeps everyone fed and in clean clothes. I can't be the one who plasters on a smile and a positive, joking outlook about her pregnancy despite the fact that she feels like she's been kicked in the stomach from the contractions that have been coming at 10 minute intervals for DAYS now. So instead, I'm just trying to get through the day one minute at a time, without dissolving into tears and scaring my poor son to death. I'm sure tomorrow will be a better day, it always is. A decent night's sleep after a long bath can bring a lot of perspective about how small my problems really are. But right now, I'm just gutting my way through, with God at my side, praying that He gets me through the day, one long minute at a time.


armywife699 said...

Girl!! You don't have to plaster on a smile. It is sooooo hard to be overdue. Your emotions are crazy, you can't walk cause your crotch feels like it is gonna fall out, and you have people left and right asking things like:

Your STILL pregnant!!
Is that baby here yet?
How much longer do you think it's gonna be?

Do they really think that your just gonna go into labor and have the baby and then wait a month to let people know!!


Before Quinn was born and I was over about a week, I would just go in his room and sit in the rocking chair and cry and pray, cry and pray. I would just ask God to please hurry up and bring Quinn on out, lol. Please let me know if I can do anything. We love you guys so much and miss you like crazy!!

You are in our prayers!! MUAH!!!

Jason, Patty and Eliana Grace said...

Sorry things are so tough. I am sorry that you are overdue. I am sure the anxiety and excitement of "it could happen any minute" doesn't help. I pray that peace will come to you and that little Aubrey will come quickly.

The Fox Family said...

Hey Lady... I know you are at the hospital as I type this but when you make it home and read this...know that I love you and I am praying for you, because some days LIFE SUCKS.

"In Christian Love" of course!

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